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Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 7th, '22, 23:39
by Moi

I had some elderly neighbors that I felt were grandparents in a way.
They'd lived here since I was little.
Most of them have died too.
The last two are riddled with cancer ;;

I told my grandma I'd see her again and I never got to.
I felt guilty eventhough I shouldn't xD

We were trying to get my sister to get the booster and she refuses.
My aunt said "You don't need to get it - you've had both shots!" which was NO helpful Bu
The booster did nothing to me ._.
The first dose didn't either but the second dose kinda whooped my ass xD

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 13th, '22, 16:04
by memoriam
Hey guys. Sorry i disappeared, but you know. I wasn't really in the mood for colorful things and chatting. Actually, on Monday I had a full on breakdown. But I managed to put together a (probably poor) poem in memory of my grandma. Writing it was difficult but at least it got some of the emotion out. Then I panicked and broke down again because I still had to order the bouquet of flowers (not sure of the name in English, it's that huge arrangement of flowers that you lay on the grave right after the burial rite, are those called bouquets?). I never had to order that before and the reality just got to me. But I did it and it was a really nice bouquet of white flowers. It was the only white one and it kind of made me feel a little bit proud that it was standing out.
Then on Tuesday I decided to destress by replanting my plants and planting the new ones that I got. That took me a whole day.
And the funeral was yesterday. I cried through the whole mass and I think I might've been the most crying one in the church overall. People were staring at me as we were walking out of the church and in my mind I was like "what? It's my grandma's funeral, of course I'm crying my eyeballs out, why the hell aren't you crying?!"
Then I promised my sister K I'd call her through FB so she could be there for the last rite at least and see dad and all that. I felt super stupid holding the phone, but it was the least I could do.
There was no wake, because covid...

My dad is better. Just a minor cough and slight spikes of temperature once in a while. But other than that he's only heartbroken. He's out of quarantine and they prescribed him some meds and he has to give himself some sort of shots in the stomach. He even thanked my mom for coming to the funeral. And his aunt also thanked her. Divorced and all, they didn't part on good terms so i guess it was a big deal for them.

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 13th, '22, 21:25
by AutobotDen
*internet hugs for Memoriam*

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 13th, '22, 22:17
by Moi

You don't have anything to be sorry for. Grief is perfectly normal and taking time to grieve is good. -hugs-

I'm glad he's doing better :3

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 15th, '22, 18:25
by jacobgrey
Take your time Mem :qh: you don't have to hurry for us, we're gonna be here anyway.

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 17th, '22, 01:12
by memoriam
Thanks guys :qh: :qh: :qh:

I visited dad today, we ate some frozen pizza and drank blue tea. I also helped him install some programs for making music. Hopefully it will give him something more to do than just sit, mourn and worry.
It wasn't an easy install either, so I guess it's worth a confetti rain? I miss making those and I need them in my life. So yeah. Visiting dad and spending time with him nicely and productively deserves a confetti rain.

*agressively throws confetti all over the thread*

I also picked up that book I began reading in 2020 and never finished. So that's another *confetti rain* for ya.
And for buying and successfully planting my new plants I shall throw them *confetti rains*
And for putting make-up on to make myself feel better *confetti rain*
And for consciously deciding my brother-in-law is not and never will be my problem and realizing I always have the choice to leave any situation I'm uncomfortable with (not only with him, but also in general) *confetti rain*
And also for the first lucid dream from a few nights ago, even though I didn't manage to control anything (or can't remember), but at least I didn't wake up once I realized I'm dreaming *confetti rain*
And let's throw just one more for overcompensating with confetti *confetti rain*

Do you guys have any confetti-worthy events? Let's confetti this place up.

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 17th, '22, 03:11
by Moi

I'm happy you feel like throwing confetti again :3

Ehhh...Well, I've been playing Killer in my game and I've met some nice people.
The game is notorious for its toxic community but people have been nice to me eventhough I suck xD;
I actually had a cute moment the other day in a match.

I'll try to explain it as simple as possible.
The Killer I like playing is a K-pop singer and serial killer.
I'm a major fangirl for him and so I play as him a lot.
I had a skill that would let me kill someone in a way that only exists for him.
So I was chasing this person, waiting to be able to kill them and they stopped running, stared at me and shook their head no.
So I said "No?? -shakes no-" and they shook their head no again.
The character they were playing had a bunny hoodie on and their ears flapped when they said no.
It was so cute so I was like "Oh, all right. I won't kill you xD"
It inspired me to try and draw the scene sooooo -tosses confetti- \8u/

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 23rd, '22, 20:49
by jacobgrey
Confetti rain: Baby B had his six week check (well, at7 weeks - but even this is confetti rain because previously they had said we wouldn't be able to get in until he was 12 weeks, but they got me a last minute appointment) and everything is totally fine. and he's a big boy, he weighs nearly a stone already XD

Also: I managed to do some writing these past weeks. At first it was like 500 words a day, now I can manage about 2k a day or even more. So even though I'm still crazy behind with my work goals, I want to confetti rain myself for managing to full-time parent a demanding hungry baby, play with him every day and help him develop his motor skills, and also get some work done. That's not nothing!

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 23rd, '22, 21:30
by memoriam
:qstar: Confetti rain for both of you! :qstar:

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*

Posted: Jan 23rd, '22, 22:10
by Moi

Confetti fight \8u/ -throws confetti-

That sounds very dangerous, actually xD
-gets vacuum- 8u/