Kingdom of Knuffel

I know. I guess it's just a way for the users that are still around to have us do something for the items.

I'm so sorry. It's like you pull idiots like a magnet Good luck with looking for a new advisor
About the app, was there no way to turn off the comment notifications? It would be a waste if you lost that app. Or maybe there's some other source you could turn to?

I have news about Ash and I. A few days ago I had a talk with him that I can't go on living separately because it impacts my whole life negatively. Then I said that either we move in together (meaning: I move in to his place) or I just can't go on so we should break up.
There was a lot of other stuff like he has a problem with my bipolar disease (um, join the club, I guess?), but also with my tarot and overall my beliefs. Great. Anyways.
He couldn't decide on the moving but didn't want to break up, so I told him to think on it and tell me by Tuesday (today).
So today I asked, since he didn't really touch the subject, and he said I could move in for a few months just to see how things go. I told him we should set a deadline. Then I set said deadline... (I'm beginning to think he's more indecisive than me, I'm just super understanding and patient). So the end result is, I move in with him until his lease expires, which is till the end of July. From then on it should be easy to go our separate ways, should we decide on that.

Oh, another thing I finally told him is that we don't have kids together only because I respected his indecisiveness. Once he gets his braincells fixed I'm going to tell him I don't care if he's ready or not, I'm trying for a baby. But if we actually do break up, I'll probably ask for his sperm, tbh XD

I'm so sorry that lady on the app was so awful Jacob. I know how insanely frustrating it is when you want to use/look at something but triggers get in the way. Hopefully after some time has passed you might feel comfortable going back to the app, and just not engaging with that particular conversation anymore.
Be kind to yourself through the aftershocks, and good luck with your therapy session!

Good for you for being firm about what you want Mem! I hope things go well for you guys, but know that you deserve better than him being a jerk about things like your mental health and your tarot . Truthfully I was in a similar boat a few years back, I was in a long-term relationship where we were looking at moving in together, but she was constantly putting me down and acting like my mental health was the end of the world no matter how well I managed it. I had just been diagnosed with DID and I was so confused and frazzled, but I had to spend all my time babying HER over MY diagnosis. I did it for months and months trying to introduce the topic gradually, but she would just pressure me to shut up and hide all of my symptoms from her. And I really felt like I was this awful burden, and that asking for love and support after my diagnosis was this huge, unreasonable thing that I didn't deserve. But that wasn't true, and it's not true for you either. He doesn't get to be a jerk about something you can't control. He wouldn't go up to someone in a wheelchair and complain that he has a "problem" with their legs not working normally, so this is no different.

I hope he smartens up and treats you better, but know that if he doesn't, then there's better out there for you. You don't deserve having to deal with someone who acts that way.

Thanks guys
I'm not about to put myself in a position of a student being examinated by a professor. It's a test for the both of us, not just me.
To be completely honest, I've been mentally preparing for a breakup. I love this idiot as I have for the last 12 years (OMG!) but dammit, it really seems he isn't ready for the "in sickness and in health" while I've been ready for dog knows how long.
He even said he was overjoyed when I was happy, moving with energy, trying new stuff, smiling and doing weird shit. And he didn't seem to hear that when I was behaving that way I was actually hypomanic... I mean, I get him, hypomania is kind of nice with all the mood and energy elevation but it's still encouraging to that other spectrum of bipolar, which isn't good either. It's the first mistake in living with it.

It just shows what our society values the most. And how unbalanced the values are.

I noticed I'm sightly irritable since I moved in with Ash (basically two days ago, lol) and I wonder if it's a suddenly harsh pms or the issues with making my own website myself, or is Ash really that annoying to me now? I feel we're both mean to one another but I can't put my finger on it.
Also, I'm so unimaginably pissed at wordpress and its themes and all that shit. My brain can't comprehend that. I feel stupid and lost, and I don't know what to do. I should really just make the stupid website but the shit is complicated for my dumb ass.