Kingdom of Knuffel

Any kind of stress (even something small like nerves)makes me ill in really strange ways (though these things wouldn't kill me, they are annoying).

This seems kind of poor compared to all of your problems... I feel like a fraud.

I'm loosing faith in humanity, and I feel as if I'm slowely loosing any sense of compassion. I watch people get physically hurt and laugh. I've become so desensitized to violence. I hate change and am very territorial over objects and people. Also I'm afraid of what comes after death. I don't care what happens...heaven, hell, rebirth, or some form of existence so long as I exist. I don't wan't to dissappear completely.

I know I love him <3
But I am always imaging something that I know I will never find.
I hate movies and love stories.
They are so unrealistic, promising things that will never ever happen.
And if it does happen, it's once in a blue moon.
Why can't just let go of those hopes for a prince charming.
I have my Prince, he may not always be charming, but I love so much.
And I'm pretty sure he loves me too.

...
Is it really true...?

She hasn't replied yet...
Maybe It's just my stupid thought...
Maybe they were just talking about someone else...
It could possibly be someone else, right?

...
Right?

It hurts...

I can't seem to tell my secrets. Those secrets, which are locked deep within my mind, I wish I never knew them. They are all awful things I learned by accident, but I don't have the longing to tell them to anyone, I just want to forget and I seem to be thinking about this stuff not so often, as time passes. And when they do come up, I don't think them as such a big deal anymore, I try to live with them, as I can't do anything about them. I feel, that if I tell them to anyone, my suffering will awaken again and my concience will be torn to shreds again... I feel like my head is a chest full of secrets and things that would make me go insane, but somehow, I am able to shut them off somewhere. Maybe it's because I start to look at life as a game, something that's not serious at all... I don't really know. :/

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Just shut you big mouths.
<_<
>_>

I feel like because I don't have a job and I don't get money to help out too much that I don't have a voice and therefore I don't even have a real place to live..

I hate guys who bully girls it pisses me :[