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Wugh. I wouldn't. Too stinky. lol

I keep hoping our little store will start selling mochi ice cream...
They're getting more and more different stuff.
They have frozen macarons now.
There's like....10 of them in a box for like $5.
Meanwhile you can buy 4 fresh ones for $9 Bu

Moi-Awww, that's so sweet and sad. That happens quite a bit I think, especially with spouses. I don't think I can die from grief. If I could, I would have by now.

XD I don't blame you. I always freak out too but the worst was when I saw something run through my kitchen. O.O I actually ran out of the house and wouldn't go back in for some time. The weirdest part is that I don't think it was a ghost. I don't know what that was. *shakes head* It almost reminded me of like a time jumper or something. Don't ask me why I think that because I don't know. XD

If you had much in there I assume you would taste it but you could call your city hall to check if you have city water. If you're on a well then you won't have chlorine.

I have to be pretty upset or holding back my feelings for a long time to cry now. I've cried so much over the years and I've gotten tougher so I don't cry very often or easy anymore.

Awww. I hope you're feeling better.

Did you survive? XD *hugs* I did that yesterday only we went to the vet and I weedeated. I didn't get a shower until after 8:00 last night. I've been so busy lately doing chores here and going to the neighbor's house to help out. Summer is extra busy for me until I get everything planted and under control. I finally got all of our plants and flowers planted. Now I just need to keep them watered and keep the weeds out. I still have a lot to do at the neighbor's house including a bunch of planting. :/ I was going to do some today but it's raining so we'll see. *sighs*

Tam-*hugs* I'm sorry about how FR turned out.

How's your brother doing?

I would say the same, but I know when my parents died, it's going to fuck me up a lot 8u

With me, I have visual and audible hallucinations so I often blame those for what I see and hear.
My doctor told me as long as I don't feel in danger and stuff, they're not actual hallucinations but when I SEE and HEAR things that don't exist - those are hallucinations >Bu
Mostly I see things, think I see things, moving out of the corners of my eyes.
I hear people talking when no one is there. I hear people calling me when everyone says they didn't. I hear CATS constantly when there's no cats.
Mostly nothing scary or serious, BUT there's been cases where I saw stuff in detail.
When we still had a landline in the kitchen, I was talking to someone and I saw a child's shadow run past me.
I assumed it was my sister so I went back to talking on the phone and my sister came out on the opposite side of where the shadow went.
So it wasn't my sister who ran past but she's the only child in our house ._.
I told my mom about it and she said she's seen it too xD
Then one day, I walked outside and I saw my mom sitting in the swing and I looked over to where my dog's water was and I saw my sister bending over like she was playing in the water and her blond hair was blowing in the wind and glistening in the sun.
I was talking to my mom when my sister walked out of the house.
I quickly looked back to where my dog's water was and no one was there.
I asked my mom if my sister got past me and went inside without me noticing and my mom said my sister was never outside. So WHAT did I see?
It was so realistic - I could have touched it. But nothing was there.
Those are the most realistic things I've seen.
My mom seeing the same thing makes me believe that wasn't a hallucination u8

We don't drink tap water so I don't really know what it tastes like.
I used to drink it, but my grandpa had a filter then.

I teared up just mentioning my parents earlier in this post. It's so easy to make me cry. Especially when my PMS decides that it's going to mess with my head instead of causing me physical pain Bu

We skipped the store but I did mow. It wore me out, but I got it done. Now the grass is getting taller so we'll have to mow again. My mom offers to mow but she's not going to be mowing ever again if I can help it Bu
You can have some of our rain to help with the flowers Bu

Rayven wrote: Tam-*hugs* I'm sorry about how FR turned out.

How's your brother doing?

*hug* Thanks.

He's okay. Busy busy.

I've been hallucinating a little (visual, and one taste one). It's just because I got sensory overload at work. I'm still going to go to work again this Saturday, Lord willing.

Moi, I always hear voices, but with me it's because of a very active subconscious. I'm dreaming even when I'm awake. I'll be thinking away, and suddenly my thoughts interrupt with something really weird, and I'm like... never mind that, NOT my thought.

Moi-Yes, it will. But you'll make it because you're stronger than you think. I used to think it would absolutely destroy me when my mom dies, and I will be very sad, but I'm a lot stronger than I used to be. It's just a good thing I didn't lose her when I was younger.

I don't hallucinate so that's why it scares me so bad. XD They might not be hallucinations though. I guess it's hard to tell sometimes. There was a ghost cat in that house where something ran through the kitchen. All kinds of strange things happened there. One time I heard a woman whisper, "He's up," in my ear. I was spooked but more curious that time. Like, what does that mean? I happened to look up and my son was getting up from his nap. O.O Apparently, the ghost thought I should know my son was awake. XD That actually happens quite a bit from what I hear, seeing clones of people. Apparently, they never talk though. That would freak me out regardless. *shudders* You can't be hallucinating if your mom sees it too.

Our well water is good. I can usually drink city water too though. It just doesn't taste very good but it's drinkable.

Awww, I used to be like that too. Certain things can still trigger me, just not as easily.

That's nice of you to mow so she doesn't have to.

It is tiring though. *nods* My dad gets to mow on the riding lawnmower but I get to weedeat with the heavy gas weedeater. :/ XD Umm...thanks, but we just got a ton of rain yesterday. XD Our yards are going to continue to be a pain in our butts if it keeps raining. XD Also, it's 41 degrees this morning. :/ I need some warm weather. *sighs*

Casper woke me up this morning by dragging his fat belly across my forehead. XD

Tam-I'm glad he's doing ok.

Awww, I hope that gets better.

Tam: I think my brain fills in silence like that. If it's quiet, I start hearing stuff xD

I remember this one time I was outside on my swing at night.
I heard my grandpa call me, he always called me "Baby" so I heard him call out "Baby!" so I assumed he was telling me it was time to come in.
I ran inside and ran to his room and said "Yeah?" but he was sound asleep.
He didn't call me but it was his voice I heard.

Rayven: I had a mild panic attack this morning thinking of not having my parents.
I don't know how to drive or cook or take care of myself and so on.
I need to talk to my mom about it because the panic is getting stronger and stronger.
I can drive, but I don't think I should. I zone out a lot and tend to panic easily xD
But I don't want to depend on people to drive me.

Since I do have hallucinations, I sometimes don't know whether I imagined something or if it was really there xD
Like say someone was trying to break in, I'd be like "Welp, just another hallucination \8u/"
I do believe in ghosts so you very well could have them u8

I don't drink water very often.

I have to avoid sad stuff during my PMS xD

She's had two cardiac arrests, she has COPD, she goes to pain management for her back - she doesn't need to mow.
Not to mention my uncle died while doing yard work and my aunt came home to find him dead.
She's never mowing again.

>XD
FEEEED MEEEEEEE -drags belly across-
My mom is really missing our Casper.
She's really upset.
She seems to think our neighbors are holding him captive.
They're the ones caring for the cats with us.

Aaaaand now I'm periodic. Really, Tam?

Casper: Pet myself on your face.

I'm thinking the hallucinations I've had are more of that weird brain jabber thing. Of course, part of it could have been period stuff and not just sensory overload. *am I even making sense?*

I have PMS and was cramping this morning pretty bad and the pain was going down my right leg so I was in so much pain that I couldn't fall back asleep.
I had to get three Motrin and it took almost an hour to kick in.
When it did kick in, the relief was glorious 8U

When my cats headbutt me, I tell them humans would go to jail if they did that to other people to show affection 8u

We have this black and white cat that comes to eat dinner every night, but he runs from us if we go near.
Well, last night Sabre attacked Macaron and I went outside to put dry food out and I called for Macaron.
He came running and the black and white cat swiped at him >>
I stared right into the black and white cat's eyes and sternly said "HEY >BU"
He looked at me and meowed and I said "Don't think I won't whoop your little ass >Bu/"
It was so funny because he acknowledged I yelled at him and he meowed back xD

I will hear like...psst psst psst...I know I'm alone and I know there's no one talking and yet I distinctly hear it 8u
I can never make any words out, it's just whispering.
I don't think mine are linked to my periods, though.
I wonder if that's a legit thing...
I know people can have issues with their mental illness during their periods but I never really thought about hallucinations...

Periods have seriously messed with my head the past couple times I've had them. Hormones all over the place.

LOL Rotten cat.

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