Thanks, I'll be fine. I go to therapy and we're on some of the current stuff that are going on, so I hope I'll be fine XD

I'm pretty much scared to decompose or craft anything I don't have to lol! But, like, when you craft something, it says original is saved or something...does that mean you don't lose items in crafting? Does that make sense at all? My brain is kinda fried right now. Eli cried a lot today because She's starting to teeth and it's really hard to keep cool when someone is screaming and mostly inconsolable.

Omg get me in! I joined a random association and whatever, it's not bad but it's pretty quiet and I'm just there to get stuff? I don't know.

If you've ever heard the term Mom-brain, it's freaking real. I feel like I lost half my vocabulary and most of the time am in a bit of a fog.

Mem! That's good! I went to see my therapist a few times recently too for family stuff. It's good to hash things out with someone who can be unbiased.

memoriam wrote:@Zia: You know, I've been telling people what they want to hear all my life, because that's the mentality of my family (and exams, lol). So after a while of just caring about everybody else's feelings and opinions but my own, it began to take its toll on my mental and physical health. And I grew tired of just telling people what they want to hear. I just try not to react if they mention her, I ignore the topic of my sister even if it comes up. That's the best I can do for myself. They say what they want, I don't have to listen or keep talking about it, I can change the subject in the right moment. If I start telling lies like "oh it's so great that she's done somehitng!" they will think things are back to normal, that I've "forgiven" her and everything's fine, and that would mean I wouldn't stay true to my own feelings. And that's something I'm trying to learn on therapy now, that it's okay to tend to my own needs and feelings before I reach out to anybody else's. It's a healthy selfishness that everyone should learn, you can't please everyone and it's best for you to care for yourself first.

Okay. It's your mental health and you know best about what works for you. I'm actually the opposite,
trying to hold my tongue more. I've always said what I think and it's not worked out well for me.

I did apply at last, but now I'm thinking I should've written a cover letter for that, even though they didn't require it. But still, it sounded super cool and maybe if I wrote something more than just what they wanted, that would show something to the potential employer. That I care or am passionate or stuff like that. But now I think I messed up.
I understand, it would be frustrating about loosing your time and energy and probably money to get qualified in something you don't enjoy or are good at.

Ooh, I'd definitely have written a cover letter, especially for a writing job. But my dad's been super strict about things like that. He also makes me put my cover letter and resume in a manila envelope. I stopped doing that because so many people take it out of the envelope and give the envelope back. I hope you get the job nonetheless!

Lol, that is a crazy compliment, maybe don't ask next time, just take it XD

Yeah, the last time he told me I smell nice I told him that I won't ask what I smell like. He told me I smell like myself.

She came, she was acting normally, but told me I'm ver mean and that she should eb telling me this everyday... Like why? You yelled at me ;>_> And thanks, that's something every child wants to hear from their mother... And it's not like she doesn't tell me this pretty frequently already. But I'm just an honest person and she is oversensitive. I'd have to stop talking when sh's around, because literally something random can set her off. Like stuff that wasn't even meant to be or even sound mean.

Ooh,
my mom's a bit like that, too. But we're working on trying to understand each other better. I hope you and your mother can do the same.

Raine Seryn, Good luck to Kyle!

I don't think I could live like that... I naturally run cold.
Today, I was wearing three sweaters on top of my pajamas. I finally broke down and turned the space heater on.

Therapy can be pretty tough sometimes because sometimes it involves digging up old wounds. But good therapists won't push you if you say you don't want to.

I was able to see my current counselor for free because she's actually a graduate student doing free counselling service as part of her practicum in order to get her counselling licence. Counselling counselling counselling. Hope you can find something like that in your area. Maybe see if there're colleges around your area with a counselling program, and see if they offer services like that.

@Lily: Aww, poor Eli *hugs Lily*
I've heard of the term pregnant-brain but not mom brain. I imagine it's similar?

@Raine: I truly should've written a cover letter, but then my brain got blank and I asked Ash what he thinks and he said I don't have to write anything more and so yeah x.x I don't think they'll contact me, they would've done it already. I think. Idunno. Anyways, I'll learn for the next time (in 500 years, lol)
Good luck to Kyle!

Okay, the heating bills make sense, that sucks balls tho I hate being cold and I get cold pretty fast and often and in all conditions imaginable, even in summer ;>_>

@Raine: Therapy isn't that scary, it's actually pretty liberating. Especially if you get a good therapist who doesn't push you into anything or forcefully digs up stuff from the past. As long as you're in charge of what you discuss on the session, you should be happy with taking up therapy The first time you're nervous and scared, but then you kind of ease into it as you get to know your therapist.

@Zia: Yeah, always telling what I think isn't the best option. Sometimes you gotta just shut the duck up x.x But it all depends.

I've never sent a cover letter or any job application in an actual letter form x.x everything's electronic now...
I really don't think they'll call. I can't live it down that I quit even during trying -.- I'm such a quiter.

Lol, that's sounds familiar actually XD

I lost all hope of ever getting along with members of my family, I think we're all too messed up

memoriam wrote:@Zia: Yeah, always telling what I think isn't the best option. Sometimes you gotta just shut the duck up x.x But it all depends.

Yeah, took me years and many burned bridges for me to figure it out.

I've never sent a cover letter or any job application in an actual letter form x.x everything's electronic now...
I really don't think they'll call. I can't live it down that I quit even during trying -.- I'm such a quiter.

I've been to a fair bit of career fairs where you'd meet in person to hand in your hard copy of resume/cover letter.
I also always bring a few copies of my cover letter and resume at my father's advice. I've only ever needed it once.

Lol, that's sounds familiar actually XD

Better than smoky basement full of cleaning products!

I lost all hope of ever getting along with members of my family, I think we're all too messed up

I've thought so of my own family many times before. Never say never, right?

I've gained weight but I still run cold.

Sounds like a rock and a hard place. I hope whichever way it goes, it's for the best.

We got the first snowfall in Warsaw this morning It was pretty, but I'm not ready for snow yet. I'm glad it melted away already x.x

@Raine: We'll see. If he gets the chance to come back, then it will be his decision anyways, right? I hope things will go well either way.

I don't want to get too hopefull, I rather get pleasantly surprised... So I really don't count on anything regarding that one. I wrote short explanation why I apply (that writing is my hobby blablabla) and so yea. I added it because I literally have no experience they wanted, but sometimes employers want passion more than experience, so I was just hoping that maybe XD I guess we'll see what I'm gonna end up with.

@Zia: That sounds like more of a fuss than use about carrying it ;/

Lol, yeah, maybe I shouldn't say that, who knows what's gonna happen

The one I joined is currently full too :/ I hope one day we'll all be able to be in the same one!

We have snow here too