Moi wrote: I've been like this for so long. I mean...I don't hate all people. People can be good and bad. I know not everyone is bad, but when you have come across so many people who just treated you like garbage, you try to stay away from people.
oh yeah i get that. i don't necessarily try to stay away rather i'm always very careful when approaching people and find it very hard to be trusting and form bonds. just in case they turn out to be shitty i guess. everyone takes things differently and sometimes i wonder how certain people keep at it, and manage to be trusting and stuff even after countless bad experiences. i don't really know if i'm sad for them for being so naive, or if i envy their attitude and ability to keep trying.
Moi wrote:I used to think it was my fault people were mean to me.
I didn't tell them to screw off or stand up for myself, so it's my fault.
i feel this sm, i think my life would have been at least 40% better if i dropped that attitude earlier. sometimes it still gets to me though, it just kind of got etched into my brain that maybe everything is my fault. but yeah, it's almost never your fault. people choose to be mean. they don't always have a reason. and often the reason is their own problems or attitude.
Saphira wrote: i surrounded myself with great friends that i consider my true family and i wouldn't trade it for any other way. never believe who tells you family is people you share blood with, family is love and respect!
i feel like this here is so important. I agree wholeheartedly. @Mynah don't ever let them guilt you intro doing something that makes you uncomfortable. it's ridiculous how people can't comprehend that, sometimes, trying to patch things up is not the best thing to do. especially if either party is unwilling do admit their faults or simply to forgive. people forget that you don't always have to accept an apology, even if it's the "polite" thing to do. i really hope that they will eventually drop it and let you be. cause really, they're just being insensitive jerks towards you.