I'm a mess. Talked to my boss about my bipolar, the current depressive episode and she told me to take a sick leave. We also talked about the job in general and how I'm doing. I'll probably leave the job in february because it's really too much for me. Oh well.

Awww, i’m sorry to hear that too. ;n; maybe find a job that’s less stressful for you?

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So anyways, just today i was scheduling an uber to pick up something somewhere to deliver to our location. I was patient, using my please and thank yous and somehow it turned into my supervisor asking me that i should be more patient and be better at coordinating people. Like i WASNT speaking to the rep at the other company, asking them to call someone in shipping to bring the package out. Like i WASNT trying to convince the clearly MORE IMPATIENT uber driver to stay as they THREATENED to leave. Like i can’t control how fast or slow the other end works, i’m not a miracle worker, i don’t have eyes all over the world to seek and spy at everyone. Why am i being blamed for being “impatient and not being able to coordinate properly”? 8UUUUUU

Yeah, that's exactly the kind of stuff that makes it too difficult for me. I'm not meant for crisis situations like that. And there's crisis after crisis, after crisis on top of a crisis within the crisis.

I'll try to find something else. Hopefully i'll find it soon because dang diggity damn, I'm in all sorts of trouble.

well it wasn't really a crisis, i just thought i was unfairly blamed. xD;;

anyways, my days kinda just blend into one another, i just deal with a lot of things quietly on my own. pft.

I wish I could do stuff quietly. But i'm not trusted. I prefer working by e-mail and they pefer the phone because it's faster. I agree but it's so much more stressful. I only use the phone in very urgent cases.

To me any problem becomes a crisis, apparently.
And yes, you were treated unfairly.

I got my sick leave. I also have to get my blood tested for thyroid stuff. Because that could be the culprit as well.

I got two rats yesterday. They're older babies, I think even older than Ścieżka. They might be over 1 year old. Their previous owner turned them in to the pet store a few days earlier because they couldn't take care of the rats anymore.
I was hoping for an older rat to be available, but didn't think the chances are big. I got lucky, I guess. They're cute, original coats. I named them Mocha and Latte, because one is brown with some white on her belly and the other is white (red eyes! ) with a very light cream back.
I should schedule a vet appointment.

TSH low levels definetely makes me feel down, so I think it's a great idea you get a proper blood test.
Actually my doctor raised my medication dose, and I've been feeling so great lately that I'm suprised - I really did not remember feeling this well.


Oh, you must share photos of your new little ones!!

Btw do you have a rodents vet nearby?

I'll have the blood test on Friday. Not looking forward to the hunger

I'll try to add some photos tomorrow, when I get on my laptop.

It's not really nearby, but it's about 20 minutes away by car. So that's not bad. I have a vet pretty close to my house, but they don't have any specialist on small rodents. Too bad for them, that specialty is a gold mine, lol.

Omooo same here. I wish I could do everything via email but my supervisor is always like “give them a call” and I’m like “ughhh I hate using the phone thoooo” and I get anxious and nervous using a phone. Probably the reason I don’t even own a cell phone even now. 8u

My supervisor now wants me to go through her when I make purchases now. 8u bc apparently I can’t be trusted to make purchases without permission lol. She’s literally nitpicking over me buying things like notebooks and stickytac. Like srs, the tac was like 2$ and she had to go “who told you to buy this” and I’m like “there’s a use for it, why are you observing every office supply I’m buying, like it’s going to have a use, it’s not going to waste” 8u.

I hate it when they tell you that you're the one responsible and aren't willing to help out much, but then they control every step you take like they don't trust you to do your job properly. Wanna get shit done your way? Do it yourself then. Jeez.

I knowwwww. I feel that alll the timeee, even sometimes with my own family. If you’re going to complain about something i do every step of the way, then gosh, do it yourself. 8u like don’t give me such a task to do if you’re going to nitpick over everything. 8u