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They put her on blood pressure medication and when she takes it, she's not bad.
She did not take the day she lashed out at us xD
And she lied and told my mom she did take it.

I hate being asked if I took my medication, though.
Because people seem to think my medication makes it 110% impossible for me to feel depressed and anxious xD

Well, if she doesn't acknowledge there's something wrong with her then nothing's gonna help...

Oh, she'll say she knows she yells and overreacts and she'll stop, but she continues to do it and say she knows she yells and overreacts and she'll stop.
It will never end.

I also found out my family thinks it's my fault my sister is suffering from depression.
Because I'm sooooooooo negative all the damn time.
Which shows me they don't even listen to me xD
My family always interrupts me, talks over me, cuts me off, and so on.
I really feel so much disrespect on a daily basis from them - but they don't acknowledge it.
I'm so close to cracking at this point xD

I always joke with my sister.
I try to make her laugh and get through things.
I tell her how to think about things and how to go about it in a positive way and not to let it drag her down.
I tell her to always consider her actions before she does anything.
I tell her to get out in the world and be positive and enjoy life.
But you know, apparently that's all negative and I'm garbage xD

I'm sorry to make this a complaint thread, but I seriously have no one to talk to because all I have is the family that doesn't listen to me.

They're pretty shitty for that
Vent here all you need

*hugs Moi* I feel you, my family also lacks brain cells and doesn't listen to me... Heck, I don't always listen to me XD
Keep doing what you do with your sister, I bet you're her biggest support :)

I always get told "You need to be more social!" "You need to be more outspoken!"
Why? All you do is interrupt me and not listen to me xD

Example: We have two lawn mowers that belonged to my grandpa. They were both self-propelled, so it was easier mowing with them.
Well, mine stop self-propelling right after my mom left and I told my aunt.
A couple years later, I was telling my mom that the mower had stopped self-propelling a while ago and my aunt said "Why didn't you tell me it stopped!?"
>____>

I can get past people being bitchy because we're all irritable sometimes and snap, but people consistently don't listen to me and interrupt me.
When I get upset, they act like I have no reason to be upset xD

I'm going to ask my doctor about switching up my medications.
Certain sounds trigger extreme aggression in me and my family continues to make the sounds and it constantly makes me want to put my fist through something.
But if I tell them they're causing that, they'll act like I'm so selfish and they're not allowed to make noise ever again.
You know, instead of being like "Oh, sorry, we'll try to stop!"

And I'll never forget the time I woke up in the middle of the night with horrible stomach pains and vomiting.
I walked to my mom's room and told her I was very sick and she told me "What do you want me to do about it?" and went back to sleep and I just lied in bed in agony and vomited constantly.

The same thing happened this year and I was having stomach pains and felt like I was going to puke my guys out, so I told my mom and she was annoyed that she had to go get me some medicine.
Then she gave me the medicine and I had to vomit, so I put my hand over my mouth and tried to make it to the toilet, but I ended up vomiting on the floor and in the sink.
She got pissed at me that I puked on the floor and the sink and told me I should have used the toilet.

It's like...I feel like I'm a huge burden and no one cares about me.
I have always had low self-esteem and didn't love myself and people tell me they love me and not to hate myself, but then they treat me like shit.
I really feel like if I got stabbed to death - they'd bitch about me leaving a mess behind.

If anyone tried to tell you that blood is thicker than water, scold them and tell then that the full, proper phase is the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb

If you ever get a chance to leave, do it. I wouldn't be surprised to find that just not being around them solves or alleviates things

sounds terrible :(

I've found I'm a lot better since I moved out of mum's. In somethings I'm not but most other things I am better.

like my sleep schedule may be screwy to others but it kinda works out on non-busy days. I'm a night owl person..

so I like to go to bed really late and up late in the day.

But sometimes during my busy days like tafe, I have to be up at 8.. so yeah. Also I get insomnia. So at times I have to nap in the afternoon cause I'm falling asleep at my desk anyway. I might as well go sleep somewhere comfortable such as bed.

But whenever I mention a nap to mum, she's like why do you need that. You're young. You shouldn't need naps.

Well fk you. I do need naps at times. I didn't say that first bit to her though. I was getting really close to snapping though.

What does age have to do with naps?????

I have no way to leave xD
I only get a small check once a month and I couldn't afford food on my own and I can't drive, blah blah blah.
I'm just hoping that my aunt will continue her medication and stop fucking with my anxiety with needless aggression and my mom will listen to me more.
I love my family, but they fail to see how badly they affect my anxiety and depression.

Yeah, apparently it's illegal to be tired ever unless you have a full-time job and are old.
I have insomnia and probably sleep apnea so I feel like I got 2 hours of sleep every night and I'm always tired and draggy.
I then get asked "How are you tired you don't work!?" and "Why are you tired?"
There's days where I just want to sleep all day xD

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