Body weight has been a big insecurity of mine since I was 11. In grade school i was bullied for my weight at one point, and i feel like it's kinda became a constant thing hanging over me for more than half of my life. I've had ups and downs, and at one point a pretty severe down where i just was not coping well at all and did everything wrong. I can at least say i'm better now, and i've come to terms with a few things about myself and learned to love my body and even feel good about it.
I'm 5'8 (173cm), and tend to fluctuate in weight from 190-210lbs. Which is a big amount to fluctuate lol. I'm not tiny in frame, i've got rather wide hips and so i tend to carry all my weight in my lower stomach and thighs. I like to describe myself as sturdy haha, bc it's helpful when i play sports. i'm not easily knocked over
I am actually very active, before the pandemic i swam 2 days a week for training, played a water sport 3 days a week, played ice hockey 1 day, did volleyball 1 day, and i did a fair amount of walking in a single day too. But now that the pandemic happened i know i gained some weight because it was like going from 110% of activity to -10% in a day. I've since started going for lengthy walks, runs, and i bought myself some free weights and strength bands so i can workout at home.
I'm still unhappy with my weight, so i've begun counting calories. I'm not really restricting my diet because i don't eat much junkfood to begin with, My strategy is 'just don't buy it' haha, i live cheap on a student budget, so i gotta make the best choices here. So it's more that i just wear my fitbit and make sure each day my calorie intake is less than my calories burned. I think i'm making some progress, but it takes time. you don't see immediate changes and i think this can sometimes be discouraging because you want to see the results now! Not in two months from now.
My goal weight is 150-155lbs, if all goes well i might hit it by February or March as long as i keep up my daily workouts. It's a progress and it's taken me a lot of time to commit to changing my lifestyle a bit and actually pay attention. But i'm finally set on reaching my goals.