What does it mean that all of my fears and insecurities only hurt me when I'm alone?
Why is it that, whenever I'm with you, they suddenly dissapear?
Every night, I crumble under the weight of the stress. But when I see you the next day, I can't even bring myself to tell you what's bothering me, 'cause the second I'm with you, all my fears just melt away.
I can't even tell anymore if all of those things are actually bothering me, or if my brain just likes to torture me when I'm alone and defenseless.
I just wish I could move in with you already. Then we'd be together all the time, and I'd always feel okay.
I hate being so dependent on you.
But if I had to rely on anyone in this world, I'm glad it's you.
You're the only one I feel safe with anymore. The only one I can truly rely on. The only one I can be myself around. The only one who won't let me down. The only one who will put my feelings before their own. The only one who cares enough to listen when my own body makes me sick.
I love you. That much I know.
I just wish I didn't feel so confused and conflicted.
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