Ever sense I was 14, which is 2 years ago I have been unable to attend to normal schools. Even when i tried to get going with schools something goes wrong and i get pulled out. When I was 14 I broke up with my boyfriend who I had sense I was ten. He left me with Stock holm syndrom because he was rather mentally abusive, controlling and was a liar. So For a year after that I was having to many problems to count. I dropped out of school because i couldn't handle that at the time... I shut myself off from the world and just only got up to go onto the computer. I stopped returning calls to the one friend who bothered with me in middle school. When she called me I would get mad and yell I was busy while she was on the phone with my parents. (able to hear me) I ended up somehow becoming friends with my ex's best friend. (he became my friend before i knew who he was. then told me by doing this speech to me of "I know everything about you" then listing off personal things I only had told my Ex. /highly disturbing. Though I ended up caring for him because I would care for anyone. I was out of my mind and wanted attention, love, and care. I figured it would be returned. So he ended up coming over so many states to stay with me. (his parents were kicking him out and as the lunatic i was I flipped out) That didn't end well. I though mainly brought him over because of the Bad standing I had gain with a 27 year old friend my parents thought would "be a good boyfriend with me" when they thought he was 18. though who would let there daughter date someone 4 years older... I guess they wish the worst for me.(and sometime before the 27 year old, I had a boyfriend for six months right after I broke up with my Ex. i snatched the first poor fool i could for comfort on the Internet. That ended nicely. /seriously. Some kid told him it was "game over" between us, so the next day he called me up with his "girlfriend" on thephone. a Girl named maple who lived in his town. Some chick he supposedly just got, but I doubt it. He called so she could tell me how wonderful of a HicGuy he was. And this was when I learned why I never dated boys my age.) and Yes, My ex's friend scared that pedo away by just being around. Though I ended up falling for Max. Which is why I started hating my Ex's friend. (Max is person I am with now, and have been for a year. he put me in my right mind back then.)
And after a Year of being out of school, and finally get everyone off my leg...I started thinking straight again once I started talking to Max daily. I wanted to go back to school but it took a half a year for my parents to listen to my demands. (the demands they always preached to me about how they so badly wanted me in school. but once i wanted into school they would yell at me saying I could not handle it, I would drop out again. :/) I got into an Alternative school... after a half a year and everything was going good.. My mom just had to get a job and so my way to school was gone. It was that or take the city bus (which this would be like an hour long ride or longer) alone. and Surely... I could barely leave the house. let alone go on a bus alone. My parents raised me that way. They never,... once let me leave my house alone without them. If i went to the mall with a friend... oh, my mom would have to drop me off, and walk around the mall "somewhere else" while i went with my friend. But suddenly they decided I "could" handle riding a bus even though they screamed at me saying i couldn't handle going to school.
-sighs-
I am now on online school, same my boyfriend was on when I started.
I pasted barely with Ds in every class because i failed to log in enough
to get good grades. heh... I used to be an A student, a wall flower...
but I got at least good grades. I am also a year behind thanks to
my parents and my unsuitability. College? far from anyones mind
for me.. even though i am supposed to be only two years from it.
Ps: sorry for long ramble. and i made the text
small and light colored because i doubt you
really care about such trivial occurrences.
I left a Large, important part of the story out
anyway... one of the main things that left
me mindless and heart broken. Something
that still eats at me today. heh...
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