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I am in some shit, I have no idea how deep.
I say to myself: 'Ignore it, it'll be alright, just keep hating them and the world, and you'll be fine'
My only escape is to hate them. Maybe not, maybe it is. I don't know what to do. I just have to keep hating, since I did from my birth.
Never liked my mum, dad, sisters nor cousins and grannies and granpas
Hatred is all I live for, I wonder why.
Who made me like this, or was it just me?
Did someone print it in my head?
Saying, 'Hatred is everything?'
Even closing it, and not love. I do bad things, just to gain the sight of that person. I know I am stupid, and they say love blinds.
But I am not. I know what I am doing. And I know the consequences. I know what I am getting into.
The worst they can do is tell my mum, and she will be angry at me.
I just keep hating her, everything will be fine.
I lost my P.E Coach's trust, lying about what I lied about.
Told him you do not exist, but then you do.
People are angry at me. I can understand. But they do not understand me. They judge too much. Why did he had to inform my mentor?
Now I hate him too, because he is ruining everything. Trusted him, but he didn't trust me. So there was no trust to begin with.
A small fragile faulth, turned it upside down. Now I live in stress, like always and just ignore it.
I feel like I am caring too much, it'll be alright and I just have to shut up.
Even if it kills me. Maybe he does not even love me, then why would I care?
It's alright if he doesn't, it's alright, right?
BEcause, Love only makes hatred, and I will soon hate him too, if he betrays me. Then I'll simply hate everything again, and simply go on with this thing I call my life.
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