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look at me now. i don't have to give a fuck about what you say anymore. i'm stronger then i was before. so fuck the insults, fuck the drama, and fuck you. i don't have to care anymore.
but because of you changed me forever. i have to deal with insecurity, depression, soical problems, and self-esteem issues. i can no longer look at myself and think that i am 'pretty', i can't find anything good about me, and i always feel like i'm out of place. i starved myself because of you. i can't talk to people anymore because of you. and because of you my entire personality has changed. i'm no longer that hyper fun loving person i once was, now i have a harder attitude towards people. i'm no longer afraid to fight back. i'm not afraid to come out and say what i want, and i'm not afraid to disagree with someone just because their 'POPULAR'. i no longer wear those 'cheery' colors. no more yellows, pinks, oranges, and light blues. it's all turned into greys, blacks, dark purples, dark pinks, and dark blues. i've started to wear darker make-up, and my music went from pop, to rap, punk and alternative. and now thanks to you, i can't even talk to anyone. i can't tell people about my feelings, i can't express anything. i'm afraid of what people would think if they knew what has happened, and what has gone through my mind. words have changed me, and i'm suffering.
but one day when we grow up, you will see me again. i will be an actress, or a singer, or an olympian in the sports world, or a professor in a university, a scientist, or even the first one to do it all. you will remember, and regret what you said. and when you come crawling back asking for another chance that's when i'll laugh. that's when i will see you hurt, and that's when you will learn what you've done. and that's when i will tell you to go home, and spend the rest of your life with the burden of what you had caused someone. that you could have been a good friend of, and had scarred.
but i can only get stronger. you have helped me to see who is and isn't worth my time. i have learned a valuable leasson, and i will never forget it. so thank you for your concern about my well being. you have changed me, and i will end up living a better life because of you. while i hope that you will die when you are old with the memory of the one that had become more then you could ever, and turned out to be stronger then you could ever remember. so in the end thank you. because now i know what the world is all about, and that there are morons everywhere. i will never forget...
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