I wish my dad was himself like he was before or at least take the medicine he was taking before. I feel like if we were better daughters he wouldn't be like this. I keep getting depressed thinking about him and how much he is acting.
I'm trying hard to keep myself busy to think about it but still think about him. I don't know what to say or do cause he refuses to get help and I just dont know what to do.
I'm getting sick as well fucking cold go away I don't need you in my life right now. I am stressing out and I just want to keep myself busy or outside of the house sometimes.
But I'm being selfish I know shouldn't be going out daily and making my mom waste her time and having to pay for my sister. My fault for getting sick going out to the stores.
Tomorrow I'm going to the doctor shouldn't really need to go since it just a little cold. But if I get sick and get a ear infection there a huge chance ctoma come back and eat up my last ear bone. I can't get sick I don't have time for it and another surgery.
Why do I even try anymore ?
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bleh got to burn down everything I ate .
