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Don't like this feeling and I hate it very much but I guess doesn't mean anything to you does it ? Maybe I am not that worth it ? Maybe my feeling don't matter as much. Maybe I shouldn't care much ? I don't know this feeling I don't like it and usually pushes me away from caring. I wish you just did something about it and some making me feel like this. I don't like feeling hate and wishing death on someone. Maybe I'm just picturing things I shouldn't be. Maybe I'm not worth it at all. Why should I be ? I'm not that special and wouldn't surprise me. I respect you very much and try change anything I know I been doing wrong or ask millions time just to know if I am doing it wrong so I could stop it. I don't like letting down people or hurting them. But I just wish would get the same treatment to. I'm sorry I'm over thinking about myself again. I'm selfish bitch and shouldn't be thinking this way. I might end up pushing you away to. I should just forget what happen and pretend everything is peachy and fine. And I'm not as jealous that I am. Maybe I should get some help for that might as well get the help. I don't want to be crazy jealous person. I'm just scared you will realize I'm not worth it. I am never worth it for no one else. I don't think I am worth it. I should stop feeling sorry for myself. I'm not okay just not at all. I wish I had someone to talk to and cry to and tell all my problems from the pass. All the things that happen to me and the reason why I'm scared and so jealous. I'm so stupid shouldn't be thinking this way. I'm sick and crying at least my nose is all runny haha what a pretty site I must be right now. I really want something to drink wish I had a car and just go buy something. I better shut up kofk going to hate me.