Oh man, I have the exact same feelings about stickers. xD I would totally collect them but then I never use them because I want to save it for something special--and yeah. XD

Ahh I see. I'm so sorry they've turned you down. >.< I had the exact same problem when I was applying to places, kept getting turned down due to lack of experience. How am I to get any experience if I don't get hired anywhere. >8U I hope you can find something, though. :c Maybe even if it's just temporary.

That sounds incredibly stressful, I am so sorry! >.< Being in that sort of tense environment can really wear you down, too. I don't get why they treat you so differently. :/ Applying to a bunch of jobs is a lot of work, too...

I see.. you two are pretty different it sounds like, I think it's awful to try and compare. And depression definitely makes a difference--I know it has affected my life a ton and how I've functioned, to things I've done or haven't done. I can't speak for illegal activity, but uh, shit happens. XD And my mom says thats often how it is, the people with all the money will pinch their pennies, and those who are just barely making don't mind spending for something special. And for what it's worth, considering all you go through and have to deal with, I think what you have accomplished and done for yourself is amazing! You have done so much more than me, too, and I'm pretty sure you're younger than I am. XD

I can totally understand where you're coming from, and I'm really sorry your parents can't see it that way. >.< Often times people don't get how depression works. I think you were in the right there for sure, she needed you and I think it's really awesome that you decided to be there for her and made it the priority. I'm sorry your sister took it so badly though, that's harsh and it hurts.

I've been typing this in between calls and tasks at work, so I apologize if any of my thoughts in this post seem scattered!

asdf. I have the exact same problem with stickers... I have an ungodly sticker collection because I've had this problem since I was in elementary school, so I saved all the stickers they'd give you for behaving. :I;;

I'm starting to put them on cards and letters tho. xD

STICKERS MAN
SO DIFFICULT
Glad one of us is starting to make use of them tho lol


Haha, well I'm turning 24 this year so I guess we're actually around the same age. xD I dropped out of high school in between 10th to 11th grade, with great difficulty finishing 9th and 10th.. mostly because of my depression. I only just finally got my GED last year (after working to pay for it myself) then managed to get a temporary holiday job on my birthday. They kept me on after the holidays, and now I'm even going to be full-time. o: I think to a lot of people these things are late coming, or not very much, but I know for who I am this has been a lot that I've accomplished.
So basically.. I think it's really fucking amazing that you not only went through school but college as well, and now you're looking for an apartment with friends and a job to boot. I know it's been rough but I think you've accomplished a LOT and are super amazing. XD

Ahh, I kind of do actually. Day shifts can be a little crazier, with nonstop calls, and I kinda wind up exhausted. Night shifts can be a little calmer, and I tend to be more of a night person anyway so I have more energy. I like both and work both, though, but tonight yeah I had a closing shift and got out at about 10:20 or so. o; and I sleep way too much LOL

ah yeah no worries there. I sincerely doubt you've really done anything to be ashamed of. xD

sigh. :| my dad and stepmom are very much like that. and I can't handle that sort of conversation either. when people are so blatantly and awfully wrong but they can't even for a second think that they might be. Dx it ends up disgusting and depressing me. and you're right it's not worthwhile even trying when one side is completely unwilling to see things differently.

yeah I definitely know what you mean. I think maybe the only thing I've found close to an accurate representation of how I felt was http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2 ... t-two.html .. I ended up crying while reading that. xD and you know that might be exactly it, maybe you can't understand it if you don't experience it. but I'd like to think that people can at least can an idea of what you're going through if they try. I still struggle with motivation and will daily, I still struggle doing things I used to love. xD and like you I struggled with wanting to exist and be alive, for so long I felt like the best thing that could happen were if I could just disappear. do you know Valkyrie Profile? I would say I wish I could just go to the Weeping Lily Meadow and forget everything. XP

psssh no worries man you are more than welcome to "ramble" :D and I'm really glad you two have eachother, it's support like that that keeps people going. I don't know what I would do without the support of wonderful friends. xD

*sticks stickers all over you three* 'course you have somewhere to put 'em :U
gotta be creative and unafraid! >D

@vee: you know, you could be the most chill person on the planet and even then... it's okay to be angry sometimes. you don't have to be ashamed or whatever it is that you're feeling about it.
sometimes
you just need to be angry about some things
your family obviously puts you under a lot of pressure. it seems you guys have a lot of problems with communication due to your clashing value systems, so of course you guys are going to clash.
so really
let yourself have that.
you can be angry at them.

:c I don't wanna put stickers on something, then it gets used up or outdated and I have to throw it away AND THE STICKERS ARE STILL ON IT.

And this is why I put them on letters AT LEAST LETTERS ARE TREASURED FOREVER.