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Yaaaay hi everyone <3
I am super depressed and I'm gonna rant in here because
Masami isn't online yet :'D I hate my entire life and how everything
always gets ruined ALL the fucking time. I've been waiting all week
for this weekend. This whole long frustrating week full of nothing
but spousal arguments and Ezra crying 24/7. I thought this weekend
would be awesome and it already sucks balls. I slept for ONE
entire hour last night because Ezra is trying his hardest to make
me miserable. Then Angel got pissy with me because the baby wouldn't
sleep which of course was 11O% my fault. Then this morning I cheer
up because today we were supposed to go with my Dad to CowTown
and he was gonna buy us a bunch of stuff ( me and the baby ) and
I never get new things so I was like :DDDDD, so I argue with Angel
about taking him to work so I can have the car. Then in the car he puts
in his headphones while I'm in the middle of talking to him because
that's how important I am, so I took his headphones and broke them
because he's a dick. So then he punches me, while I'm driving, because
I broke his headphones ( although I guess I missed the whole punch
people when they break your things memo back when he broke BOTH
of my iPhone 6+s and then tried to break my Mac laptop :u ). So then
I dropped him off at work and cries for about 2 hours because I'm stuck
with this idiotic druggy fuckface who hates me, but I cheered up remembering
that I was gonna hang out with my dad. So I called him when I got home
and he's telling me that he "Lost all his money and doesn't remember
what happened to it" which means "I forgot we were going out this weekend
so I bought a whole bunch of crack", which also meant that I went through
all that BS with Angel for no fucking reason and he could have just
kept the car and I could have avoided getting hit and yelled at and I could
have still been sleeping and gotten maybe 3 hours of sleep instead of 1.
Now I'm not going to have anything nice to wear to the beach tomorrow,
I have to sit here all day and do nothing but listen to Ezra fucking cry
and scream all day [ which I happily thought I was going to avoid
for JUST today, but I guess not ], and then later I'll have to go and get Angel
from work and it's going to be terrible because he's going to apologize for
hitting me and making me cry for the 6OOth time just this week, and then I'm
going to forgive him because I'm a fucking retard, then we're going to go home
and get into a fight about something else because that's all he ever wants
to do mixed in with summore baby crying of course. Then tomorrow, we're going
to wake up at 53Oam to go to the beach, where I wanted to look great and
have a good time, only I'm going to look terrible and probably not do anything
because Angel is going to want to 'save his money' aka spend it on
drugs later even though I told him if he does it again I'm going to leave him
but since he doesn't care, drugs anyway. And I hate the heat and the water
so I'm basically just going because his family wants to go and the whole day
is going to be balls. Just like today, and it's only 8am and I've been up for less
than 2 hours. :D
Okay, I feel better. A little. Not really.
But I guess I'll go feed Ezra since that's the only way to get him to shut up. :l
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