People like their anonymity I guess

I've been watching a lot of youtube vids that inspire me somewhat to write one of my novels. But it's weird and complicated.
Also been playing a bit too much And came to a conclusion I kinda probably am depressed, but I think it's because I waste so much time on seemingly nothing.
Maybe I really should try for a very simple job like a cashier, so I could spend most of my time making up things and writing them down in my free time? There are no offers that I'd want to take, and if there are, I'm unwanted
I'm too lazy to look up offers anymore. I was supposed to find a course but I haven't even looked yet. Not sure I'm that lazy or that depressed. Maybe it's both
Eh, eh, I'm feeling meh. Not even in the mood for chatting or playing that mobile game anymore, but I guess I got addicted because I keep playing it. Still trying to cut my time on it. Excuse: last week was hectic for my alliance and bam, I was online more again. Someone kill me plz, I really like the ppl there, but the game itself is starting to really bore me and suck the life out of me.
Plase don't refer to my little rant here, I know your opinions guys and I know what I'm supposed to do. Hopefully soon. Thanks
#justranting #keepscrolling


Edit: I cooked tasty dinner yesterday though! *confetti rain*

I wouldn't call it a handfull either tbh XD

Update on the mobile game: I'm taking the week completely off it. No more "I'll just go for one barbarian camp and kill 5 dragons and that's it". Needless to say it never ends in doing only that.
Last week the king of our kingdom stablished peace between all alliances, but didn't make it clear that much, none of our members saw it, our lader asked the king throuh a PM, never got a reply... so one of our members was attacking other alliance. The king got pissed, but instead of actually listening and acknowledging that it was an honest mistake, he just said "okay, all can hit MAG (short name of our alliance)", called us all thieves (because apparently the guy won a ton of resources, and for some reason that's stealing somehow), and human trash, that we don't respect rules and the whole kingdom began just going at us both on chat and by attacks. Then it settled down for two days, now there's new peace and we're doing okay. Right? wrong. Because some of our members just have to taunt other alliances (stronger than ours, might I add) or get triggered by them and now we're being attacked on peace time because of a few idiots can't keep away from the kingdom chat.
So I decided I need a break. 1, injustice is my personal pet peeve, I don't deal with it like other people do. 2, I don't need my heart palpitating even though I know it's not worth it. 3, I don't need to deal with idiots on both sides. So a week off it is. Maybe that's a start.
Ugh, I miss some emojis though XD

Sounds like me when my depression rears it's head

Oh, okay, then maybe I'm not totally crazy and self-pitying

I officially sent the message to our leader that I'll be off for this week. I hope that I start doing other things, realize I don't need that game at all and will feel ready to leave it completely. I'm trying.

I'm also trying to figure out my own novel... I made the mythology really complicated.... ;>_> Srsly, it's messed up, I don't get it much anymore ;___________; LOL

I sure hope so. I'm kind of surprised, but also kind of expected it: I'm having trouble not reaching for the phone and opening the game... Yay, addictions I should've known better. Oh well.
BUT! Had a small success already! Okay, I still slept until 10 am (omg! have been trouble getting up earlier than that, I'm ashamed...) But I did make myself something to drink around noon and I already did the shopping for today. Lately I've been seriously neglecting my hydration, starting to drink anything at about 4pm... And doing the shopping at 2 or 3pm, because I really didn't want to go out or do anything for that matter...
So it's nothing, but I'm proud, maybe I'll achieve something today XD

It's like dead quiet on the forums! It's like watching kofk die a slow death with my own eyes, can't stand it! I thought it was quiet in general, but lately it's even worse!

Aw, seems the two of us could switch countries, jacob. We've been having a lot of rain, I think last two weeks was basically only rainy weather with little to no sunshine at all. Last evening I actually put on warm socks x.x And I'm craving some sunshine, I even asked Ash to come for a walk with me the other day. Usually he's the one to initiate such activities. True, we only went out for maybe half an hour before the clouds covered the sun completely and we had to head back...
Today is warmer than yesterday, but still pretty cloudy. I went out for shopping during sunshine though
I wish you'll power through tomorrow like a boss

sorry, lately I just don't feel like posting as much