Thank you, Moi. It means a lot, to feel understood. I mean, I do know the current situation is totally my fault and it was uncalled for but it was also an ugly wake up call for me. Made me realize some things. Like that I need to improve and that I'm gonna stay in place with them around. And also that I need actual friends instead of just talking with my mom about stuff. Right now I don't think I can trust her as much as I used to.

I'm trying to figure out some accessories that would help me keep them without creating damage. And believe me, they can be far more destructive to one's property than any cat or dog, those little monsters They chew up everything and they're very curious and get into every crook and cranny they can find. And love cables, so it's also dangerous for them. Even as little as taking them in your hands might end up in your shirt getting wholes in it

Exactly, I can't be perfect, even more so when I'm expected to act in a way I don't agree with. I actively try to better myself on daily basis and this one fuckup made my sister call me a hipocryte because I tell her all this stuff about self improvement and then I lash out and ruin everything. And I'm like... you know I'm not perfect, right? You know I'm still learning, right? Or are you stupid and took me for some self-improvement guru? XD I'm human, lol. So far I've been the person to encourage her and my mom to do something better, to think more positively etc. But maybe it's a mistake I've made. I've heard you shouldn't help somebody else until you've helped yourself first. So maybe that's it, who knows?

Oh yeah, they can be a handful, especially to an inexperienced owner. Lol, I still feel inexperienced although now that I'm trying to find a way to keep them after our moving away it will probably push me to take even better care of them than I took of my previous ones. I noticed I'm improving my pet owner skill with each pet I have. I think it's how it's supposed to work, right? (gosh, I'm self-reflecting too much lately, lol)
Kittens are full of energy so that's normal I think :D Cat can be really temperamental too, it depends on the cat. My syster had a cat that ws super sweet and calm. Now she has a cat that is a total a-hole, pushing plants off the shelves while looking you straight in the eyes etc. XD With rats it's like one will love to steal your used tissues and the other will lick inside your nose but both will bite their way out/in to things when they want to and even out of boredom. The most annoying thing is when you buy them a chewing toy and they don't want to chew it, but your new t-shirt is totally chewable for them xD So biting things is a n instinct you can't help, just always give them something to chew on.

But you're not anemic yet, so that's good! :D So are you going to try with some diet improvement plus supplements or just supplement?
That reminds me one time I went to a doctor and she looked at me and said: "oh, you're very pale, maybe we should check your iron levels" and then when she got tthe test results she's like: "wow, you have more iron than a typical adult man, congrats, that's a very healthy iron level, it must be your natural beauty then" XD I've always been pale and always had circles under my eyes, it's a genetic thing after my dad, so I don't blame her for thinking that, it was nice she got concerned but it was also funny to see her so genuinely confused for a second ;P
Do you have something specific in mind for sleep, weight, energy and positivity?
2020 is powerful, I guess it's because it's such a round number and so everybody's like "this year will be my year". While God silently laughs at us XD

Hello everyone

Hi Luna! Long time no see :D How have you been?

Yesss !!! I missed this place so much :c I’m trying to get back into it.... it’s harder than I thought. I miss all my knuffles and items </3 ugh


I have been great though... working... went back to school for my masters... got a better apartment. It’s amazing

How about you?!

Wow, yeah, I imagine it's hard. Did you give away all of your items and knuffs before you left?

Getting a better apartment and going for masters sounds awesome. And how's work?

I got into writing for real, been doing tons of workshops and courses. I'm thinking of changing my current job but for that I'll need new skills, so more courses XD And just a few days ago there was a drama in my family and bf and I decided we value our mental health more than our savings, so we're looking for a place to rent.

Yeah I gave everything to demonskid and I regret it xD I didn’t know if I would come back and I totally missed it here gahhh

Work is good though!! It’s always the same stuff so hope I can get something new soon xD


That sounds awesome!!! I’m happy your writing is kicking off c: I hope you find a place to rent ! Hopefully it’s not too expensive like where I live... rent is sooo high I hate it lol

@Luna: I'd probably keep a few favourite items to sustain a few fave avis just in case. So you're starting completely from scratch, wow! How are you going to handle this, I don't even XD

Haha, mine's boring too, that's why I'd like to change it. But it's good money and since it's not as much brain engaging I am able to write after work. But I'm so bored it's not okay, I'd rather both enjoy work and have time and energy for writing XD
And because we're going to be renting I'd prefer to actually get an even better paid job, if it's possible. But as I said, I need courses for that ;P It's not like renting will be straining our budget, we'll actually still be saving, just a little less than up to now.

@Jacob: Yay, an update! I was wondering how you were doing :)
I think it's smart to keep a good contact until the wedding but at the same time I'd be afraid you'll have the time to start doubting yourself. I fear the same for myself as we're searching for a place to rent. I do hope you'll be able to keep your distance after the wedding.

*confetti rain* for the fasting going well! :)