@jacob: Lol, still, when I wrote here about my pets dying I don't recall you not saying you're sorry about that. Well, he didn't say anything like that. He just straight away went to asking how long rats live anyways and he was smiling the whole time. I'm not going to expect people to cry after my pets, I've been connected to them after all but damn it, when you hear somebody's pet recently died and they had to euthanize the other one even more recently the first decent thing to say is "oh, I'm sorry". It's just human decency. I don't think I'm crazy for loving my pets and missing them after they've died, I think most people feel that way at least

@Moi:

Moi wrote:No matter how much you show them they're wrong - they will never admit it.

That's my family I guess

Moi wrote:You just gotta accept it and keep your distance.

And that's what I'll be trying to do, we'll see how difficult they make it.

Maybe she was pretending nothign happened? That's how my family deals with things. Even now my grandma is acting like nothing happened last Sunday so maybe they don't even need my apologies. Maybe I should do what my sister did, disappear for a few years and then come back and act like nothing happened xD But I don't want to do that, I just want some peace in my life finally.

memoriam wrote: I just want some peace in my life finally.

I'm just going to refer my family to this quote over everything that's been happening lately XDD

That's true I guess. I can understand that it's sad and I certainly understand that some people get more upset than I do about things. About anything, I suppose.

Haha, glad I could deliver XD

Maybe I'm the weird one here. I've discovered I'm most probaby a highly sensitive person... and my mom and sister are too probably, so we're all overreacting to normal people

I've sorta stopped talking to my family but it was a sort of more my mum and sister were getting on my nerves but not enough to cut ties.

But mum uh got into a car accident on weekend, she's okay the other driver is okay although I hope she gets good insurance payout. Her car is not okay it is totaled at the front. I mean that is how they make cars these days for your safety, not so the car survives.


anyway it was nice to catch up with her even if I still disagree with a lot of her woo-y stuff she believes in. I'm glad she's ok.

That said if you have to cut ties completely on them, that's okay too mem. If they're toxic do what's good for you not them.

Oh my! Glad your mum's okay Crossing my fingers for the insurance!

Talking about woo-y stuff, we're in shadow period of Mercury's retrograde, what's also supposedly connected to accidents and mishaps with vehicles and electronic devices and of course human communication in general. I don't know if I really believe it but I find it funny that whatever ugly thing happens during that time, I can always say "damn you, Mercury" XD Idk why it makes me laugh so hard...

I'm not sure what I should do. I don't think it's possible to completely cut them out. I plan to resolve this situation this week and no matter the outcome Ash and I are still going to move out. And what happens after I try talking things out in a way is not completely up to me. I'll have to wait and see.

Storytime! So, I've been convincing my sister to take some writing workshops etc. And I recommended one to her. Then she wanted me to take it with her and although I've promised myself not to take any more, I caved because of the very attractive price and potential content.The workshop started yesterday.
Now, my sister texted me about an hour before the livestream for workshops, asking about some workshop stuff. I answered, helped her out (although she could've easily checked herself). Then she goes saying she's grateful I replied. I wonder why wouldn't I, if she was asking for help (typical me, I fell for her trap) and I said I'm not mad at anyone, just taking some time to figure out some stuff. And then she goes ranting to me how I should think about my behavior, and I should tell people if they can call/text me or not because people don't know and that I shouldn't just close off like that because it's selfish and it's running away from the problem.
So I got pissed. Told her I have the right to take my time to figure out my behavior and reasons for it before I do anything else. That it's not my obligation to tell her anything just because she wants it right this instant. Also, I was very clear about needing some time to think, so she knew. "Figuring stuff out" means a particular thing, so told her to better check what she's asking of me because it's exactly what I'm doing and she's mad at me for it. Besides it's nor okay that she had years for NOT apologizing to mom and grandma while I can't even get one day for it while I'm actually preparing an apology. And if she'd waited a day or two more, she'd get that note but now I don't think it's even worth it. Of course in the meanwhile I called HER selfish etc.
Then she jumped right back up at me, saying I project my flaws on her and that I should see a psychologist to figure myself out because it shouldn't take this long or something and just not to attend to a psychologist who tells me to cut people out because that's bullshit and running away from the problem. And that I should learn to exist with my family.

Like... wtf? Is she stupid or am I? And she does that on the exact same day the workshop starts, half an hour before the first livestream? And tells me IM projecting my flaws on HER? I should be the one going to a psychologist while she also needs it? I at least know I do some self-reflection. She obviously doesn't. I don't feel like apologizing to her, she doesn't even take my feelings and need into account while I actually consider hers.
I feel crazy, humiliated, stupid and everything that's the worst. And the worst part is, even if I completely ignored her text, she'd be ranting about the same things. Whatever I do is wrong. And I'm pretty sure most therapists would say to distance myself from toxic relationships. It's not cowardice, it's reason. Or am I stupid again? I truly feel like I'm goig crazy, I question my morality over and over again whenever my sister comes up.

Edit: guys, just don't tell me I need to see a psychologist, I do, I know, I'm fed up with hearing it. February's not the right time.

she sounds like she gaslights you


and just a really toxic person who doesn't want to admit it.