All that because I'm a nice Hufflepuff and that Slytherin jerk used my instinct to help others She started out nice, how did this even happen? She doesn't make sense on so many levels taht I can't even describe it. I could literally write a book on it
She's been depressed, doesn't know what she wants from life (besides writing and publishing a series of books), doesn't know if she's happy, I've told her to go to a psychologist because it's a lot of issues at once. And what does she do? She doesn't go herself and instead tells me to go because I have one effing issue in my life and that issue is not being able to control my stifled emotions that I stifle for my toxic family. It blows in my face just as it blows in theirs. It's not like I do it on purpose, I just try to fit in in their world with their rules and I'm unable to do it.

Ugh, maybe I should start calling the blue line in February and then seeing someone from March or something. I literally can't handle it.

Haha, gaslighting sounds totally like what's happening. But then again, my second thought was... maybe I'm gaslighting her and don't even know it? XD

Woah that was a lot to catch up on

mem, I am sorry about what happened with your family, too.
I hope you won't regret your decision; but therefore it is really good that you took some time to think about it all, so I am convinced you will make the right decision for you and Ash :)

Do you already have a new place in sight?

jacob,
so will you contact your parents again? Or will you leave it the way it is, just keeping the distance, hoping that feeling of "grief" will pass again?

Why are we talking about Harry Potter again :D ? (not that I am complaining, just wondering xD)

I forced two friends to take the test yesterday actually xD They are brother and sister, he is a Ravenclaw and she is a Hufflepuff apparently.
I always catch myself thinking bad about Hufflepuff, but the more people I meet (whom I like) who belong to Hufflepuff house the more I realize that it is a great house as well (like all the others), but it's just unterrepresented in the books and films.

Moi, also sorry about your aunt and her behavior around you.

This:

" nag nag nag nag insult nag nag nag"
and
"So I've had to learn to just ignore her"

is true for me and my Mum as well

@Moi: Not all slytherins are bad, it's just that the ones who are my closest family are just spewing ginormous amounts of venom when they get the chance Hey, come to think of it, Gryffindor could be a mix of Slytherin with Hufflepuff XD

But it's hard to distance yourself from someone you live so close to. I know, because my grandma is super annoying and I know she's never going to change. It's bearable, she's not the most toxic person (that guilt tripping thou, oh man!), it's just that she's old and making a lot of excuses to be childish and just her whole worldview is almost completely opposite to mine since she's such a religious zealot... And she has thousands of annoying habits (although I'm sure I do too). And my way of distancing from her was generally not talking to her, which is also bad. I try exchanging a few words once in a while but she just never shuts up and I got shit to do y'know? XD It doesn't help she never takes a hint that I want to go. I scoot over to the door, she comes with me. I tell her "Okay, I gotta go" she says okay and keeps talking, wtf xD
And even if you don't talk to taht person, you still live with/near them and it's still subconscious stress and it lasts way too long for you to handle. At least that's how it is for me. Then I burst out, doing stupid shit and I'm the bad guy

@Julez: I'm proud of you for catching up *showers you with confetti rain*
We're still kind of searching, have some links saved and have to look through them and start calling. I also need to tell grandma we're moving
There's a ton of small stuff going on. I made some medical appointments yesterday, so that's a win. *shy confetti rain*

I guess we're talking about Harry Potter because I brought it up
People tend to think Huffpuffs are mellow and Slytherins are all bad, while in reality, how in the hell do people think there are only 4 types of people? XD Your house might change with time, too.
and when people talk shit about hufflepuff I'm either like: "noooo, we're nice and loyal, love us! " or "come at me bro, you'll taste some badger medicine" XD
I'm impulsive as hell, I've noticed


Looking through my wardrobe I realized I've won third place in the avatar contest because I saw the medal and didn't recognize it XD then checked and I saw my avi not only on the third but also on 10th place. Yay, I'm good at avies *confetti rain for me*

Gosh, couldn't she call you instead of bothering him? that's childish and a harassment
I'm the most pissed about the holidays and birthdays, I don't want to spend it in a bitter atmosphere with bitter people who don't accept me or my views, pretending everything's fine. I hate that. That's why I blow up in people's faces, I just can't stand it.
Also, just remembered, 30th January used to be my name's day and my grandma came over wishing me happy name's day and it went something like this:
Me: but it's not my name's day anymore.
Granny: But it used to be.
Me: But it isn't.
Granny: then when is your name's day now?
Me: don't know, don't care, don't wanna celebrate it.
Granny: Then for the old times' sake, here's some terribly sweet chocolates you'll hate eating because they'll give you one hell of an acne for months to come and because I have no idea what you like so I bought the first thing I got in my hands.
Okay, so she didn't say the last part, but you get me. And if I didn't accept the chocolates she'd be guilt tripping me. Awesome. If it wasn't for birthdays and name's days and holidays I wouldn't be eating so much sugar.

Do you want to tell how that call with your mom went?

I'm so glad mum doesn't guilt trip me as much now

*seethes with jealousy* lol

mem,
Good luck with finding a place!
I mean, you can still wait with telling your grandma about you moving out until you have a place, then it's really final. But I am proud that you are finally taking that step :) Don't surround yourself with people who are toxic for you :)!

My mum is also the best guilt tripper I know. She was worse when I was still in school, but it's still annoying.

And congrats on winning the medal!! :) *confetti rain*

Hufflepuffs are really nice people, we need you :)
I am a Ravenclaw xD
Actually this is the statistics for my friends & I :D :
0 Gryffindor
1 Hufflepuff
3 Slytherin
5 Ravenclaw
There is still one friend in our group who has not taken the test yet, but we hope and we really think that he is a Gryffindor. :D

jacob,
Aww, I was really sad when I read that "you just want to get through with the wedding" - what a sad thing to say :( I really hope that you can get a different feeling about it when you and your Mum "talked it out" just a little bit.


@ all
just a general question:
(ok for you guys it's probably a different situation 'cause you all have a partner)
Hypothetically speaking, if a person really close to you is really ill (ill like having an illness which may lead to death in an unforseeable amount of time, so that the person could basically die next month or just in years), would you speak to somebody about it (except the person itself) ? I guess you would talk to your partner about it, but if it wasn't for him/her?