@Moi: Oh, yeah, sorry XD I can change it back if you want
Well, I'm preparing now I guess XD

It's true, he doesn't know what to say because he just doesn't know what he wants. He doesn't even know whether he's happy with his current life or not.
We had a discussion about the issue today. We didn't end up fighting, so that was nice. There's a lot going on in his head. I don't think we've ever had a confrontation where he was this open, raw and honest with me. I think he actually bared his soul for me today. So I'm actually hyper grateful and proud. I can't ay I'm content or happy but at least we're making progress and I finally know what's going on, at least more than ever. Before I only had what I surmised with a gentle sauce of my own fears.
But yeah, he still won't go to couples' therapy as he doesn't think we have issues to work through But he told me he's looking forward to going back to therapy once his place opens again in March. So I cross my fingers it actually will open...

Exactly. I told him today that I feel like a yoghurt in our fridge, I have an expiration date. Or I'm that fruit that sits too long in your kitchen and suddenly it goes bad although it was perfectly good just the day before...

It's not unaccaptable, I don't think It's just a thought that happened, it's okay to have them

Yes, please, I need a slap. If the Universe will speak through your hand, I'll take that slap XD

@Ray: Eeeey, long time no see XD
Ahaha, SLAPFEST! *slaps everyone*

I'm seriously hyper lately.

@Moi: We didn't decide on anything so it's not like it was some major breakthrough, but I'm glad we could at least talk and remain civil. I still think he's contradicting himself but has no clue what to do about it. And it won't help if I tell him what he should do. Because I think he should just let go, because he's worried too much about the future and many other stuff it's unnecessary to worry about now. Literally he's worried about "what ifs".
I hate conflict as well, I'm a Libra XD But he's been avoiding that serious talk so I'm happy I tried and succeeded. I don't think I understand him yet but I'm beginning to. At least I know for sure he's not ignoring my pain and I have a better understanding of just how deep his issues are. They're complit bullshit to me, but he truly believes or is terrified of certain things. And I know them to be completely not true.

I still think a random thought doesn't need to be slapped away. It just needs to be reminded, like "hey, where'd you come from? That's not what I want, get out of my head" XD

*gets knocked out by Moi's slap*

LOL, I have now XD He did exactly what I would sometimes want to do with my family, or coworkers, or just anybody when they piss me off XD

@jacob: Aw, no, don't let your mother's words doubt yourself like that. I'm sure she was just being... hmmm, herself She probably wanted to spite you or something. Or didn't think it would make you feel that way. Maybe she didn't even mean anything by it except for the fact that sometimes women can't bear children. I wouldn't pay too much attention to her words.

Moi wrote:

Rayven is here 8D
-slaps- 8u/

Yes I am!

*is slapped* XD

Was that a cat in the tree? XD I think that guy has issues but there are days I feel like doing that.

memoriam wrote:@Ray: Eeeey, long time no see XD
Ahaha, SLAPFEST! *slaps everyone*

I'm seriously hyper lately.

Yes, I get lost sometimes. XD

*is slapped again and starting to feel like a floppy fish* XD

At least you're having fun.

I hope you and Ash can figure it all out. I hate it when men act like it's solely their decision whether or not to start having kids. *rolls eyes*

sending this message around to see where it's the most active. Is this a ghost town?