Back again, had to read back quite a bit...
@ Mem: Yeah, that stinks. I understand why you cannot go right away. In that case, do use technology, babies are still super patient and still super adorable in front of a screen. :)
Then there was a lot of baby talk, epidurals sounds aweful, just like C sections. Remember that someone else's baby is super different, I've never gooed above any baby and still don't. I do love my own. Hormones are awesome, the best pain killer available. I had one baby at home, accidentally, but even that one came out and was the least painful imho. Never had c-section, I did share a room with ladies who got that procedure, after I gave birth at home, the accident and I was walking around the next day, while they were in quite a bad shape. It's great there are options and that docs are there to help if needed, but bodies are quite capable of doing weird things. Like, hormones, it's a natural pain killer and makes you forget everything quite soon afterwards. Or maybe that's baby love? Dunno why else I did it 3 times. Thinking about it in a sober way = no good. Wait for the hormones. :)
And sorry to hear about the depression. No idea what to do about that, a dog might work out, but I have no idea. Cannot give you advice there, just wish you all the best and look after yourself. Search for help if needed.
<3 Sending love your way. <3