yeahh i woke up monday morning to snow that was up to like my hips to waist. XD and i'm like 5'3" so i'd have to burrow into the snow like a mole to get out lol. xD

and the driveway leading out from the parking garage was like not plowed because the maint guys in the complex hadn't gotten around to it yet. so there were like 3 cars with their wheels just kinda vrrrvrrrvrrring and just spinning and not going anywhere lol. my dad and i got stuck too for like 15 mins before we were able to back up back into the parking garage........and just called it a snow day lol. i message my supervisor like "yeaaaaaaaah i'm not going ANYWHERE today 8U" and then she told me she hadn't even gotten to the highway yet and she was already stuck lol. and i was pretty sure that my residential side road hadn't been plowed either cuz the trucks usually do the main roads before doing smaller roads.

I'm tired but can't sleep.. ibs is acting up.. i feel sick too...

If we hadn't had that snow storm... mom's copd wouldn't have been aggravated even more and she woulda gotten better on her meds.. >A<

I'm kinda blaming the snow... i don't think I'll like it ever again.. even from an indoor 'its beautiful' standpoint..

aw i'm sorry to hear that. i don't like cold weather either cuz when cold air enters my lungs, i feel like coughing.

cold air affects my asthma, like my lungs are freezing and i can't breath.. but i use to love looking out at the fresh falling snow... i don't think i can do that now..

yeah i used to have asthma too. and whenever it gets cold or i get sick, my lungs are affected. 8U

asthma sucks..

i have to go to the funeral home tomorrow and sign stuff for mom to be cremated.. i don't want to.. wish someone could do this for me.. >A<

I’m sorry…D: but you were here closest living relative so there’s probably no choice…D:

she has 7 sisters, 2 brothers, and 2 other children..

Her wishes were, only one out of that whole lot were to be notified upon her death and I hate it..

The reason why she didn't want them to know is because of how they all treated their one sibling (the one who was to be informed) when their dad died. They took her to court and got her inheritance for themselves by claiming she stole from their father. They totally blacklisted her from the family end everything.

Mom didn't want anyone doing that to me. Even more so since my sisters refuse to speak to her.. haven't spoken to her in over 15 years.

So I am the only one who can go...


I also need 250$ to get the electric put into my name =A= otherwise they're gonna shut it off

Oh dear….D: well i hope you can figure something out…>< its tough having to do everything yourself.

even worse when the only aunt who knows about this, doesn't understand mental illness and just told you to stop being shy and picky about jobs..

its not being shy.. its being mentally ill and unable to handle being around people. I have to find a job where I'm not near the customers.. dishwashing is away from people and something I should be able to handle mentally.. physically i don't know yet.