I'm feeling a bit better today, actually. Probably because of the increased medication that I took last night. And I got all the medical stuff for work out of the way. So that's some stress off my chest. Although when I told the doctor I'm bipolar she widened her eyes and began asking me if I can manage with the new job... Like, lady, I NEED money to SURVIVE somehow. Just give me the note that I'm fine to take the job and let me leave, pls. But I guess it might've been out of genuine concern. Idk, I took it personally, lol.
And I finally got a package of books for sale sent out to the place that buys old books from people. I hope they'll send me some money because I don't want to borrow more from Ash. It's still nice of him to take care of me financially.
Spoiler: rant about ex
He's still a dick though, lol. We met a couple of times not too long ago and I just couldn't keep my mouth shut about us and he told me some stuff I could go on without knowing. And he's been brutally honest. No empathy, not nice. It all sounds like he says I was the problem, then he tells me it's not what he means. I'm trying not to take it personally but I can't help it but blame myself for being a disaster of a human being. Or a failure. Or whatever else that's negative and pathetic. Okay, I think this rant is over.