i'm not living in that house anymore, i'm living one floor down with my maternal grandparents. but since we live only one floor down, i come into contact with the abuser often

i wish they'd just disappear because their presence is triggering, but at least i'm relatively safe now.
Merrymaking wrote:I'm right with you on the dream shattering for having been born a woman. You'd think that in this time (and in this area of the world, I might add) we'd have known better by now. But sadly no, we keep underestimating people over their lack of a penis.
my heart breaks for you

we deserve better from the world.
Merrymaking wrote:After all kinds of adversity I don't even know what I want from life anymore, so I don't even know what to work towards. Ergo, I'm not really putting in any effort anymore, which isn't making me feel any better either
it's difficult to be motivated to do anything when you don't want anything. that's the only reason we do stuff, to get something we want or achieve something we want. so i completely understand

and i know how icky it feels, kind of like depression, it becomes hard to take an interest in life. *hugs* i hope you find something that excites you again.