I crashed not long after. x'D I really needed that nap.
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So, my hearing ended an hour or so ago. Bry was over and calmed me down,
but I wasn't as bad off as I was last time I went through this.
Last time, I felt rushed and I rambled, and the judge sounded grumpy.
This time, the judge was nice, asked about my kitties before getting
the proceedings started. I think that helped calm me some. Then
she was a slow typer, so I was able to breath and calm down in
between questions, that helped me some. I stuttered though...
As far as I am aware, I don't have a stutter so I kinda freaked out
over that a bit.
My lawyer did an opening statement, then the judge asked me questions,
then my lawyer asked me questions to elaborate more on my issues. THEN
the judge said some sort of hyperthetical, and asked the vocational specialist
if the hyperthetical person had jobs they could do, they listed a few but I couldn't
really hear most of what he said.. And then my lawyer added onto those hypertheticals
and the specialist said no to a lot of them.
I won't get the official ruling for a few weeks yet... but I am so scared..
I think it went well, but still... everytime I have hope for something, it ends up
not happening.
After the call was over, I texted Bry who was sitting outside in her car, and she came up.
I was curled into a ball, shaking.. good thing I unlocked the door before the call happened.
I wasn't as bad off this time, last time I did this, I was hyperventilating, crying, and my
arm muscles had locked into place. Mom had to massage my arms free.. That didn't
happen this time.
So.. now it is time to wait a few weeks for the judge's decision.
that's the run down. The worst part is over and will have to do it again during the appeal if this doesn't go through.
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