@Moi: You're not stupid

*hugs* I think it's one of the worst feelings when the people who are closest to you just dismiss you/don't believe you. I was the youngest child in the whole family, always called every possible variation of "little one" and I can't even tell how many times I've gotten the good old "you know nothing Jon Snow"... After a while you just begin to believe you don't even matter because you're so small and thus your opinions/problems are irrelevant so there's no point of even sharing them with anyone

So I know the struggle of being ignored like that for no valid reason.
Older people tend to think they've got some monopoly fordeath and health issues. I can't understand it. Sure, 'cause no young person ever has gotten sick and/or died. Ridiculous.
@jacob: I'm happy I made you laugh

Idk why it makes me super happy when I make people laugh
Thanks for answering guys, I appreciate it!

I've always had that (I think) and so far I don't think I've ever met anyone who would say "yeah, totally, I get that too!" what makes me feel super weird about myself

Is it an eating disorder? Is it adhd? who the fuck knows? XD
I had other random questions to ask but I already forgot what they were xD #goldfishmemory
@Ray: Funny you should mention being "well-rounded" (thanks for making me learn a new word

), because basically that's what my therapist said when I told her how disorganized I am

She didn't mean it like "you can't be this or that because you're too well-rounded", she just had missing information and so she was fooled by the outside signs

She said something along the lines of "what are you talking about, I think you're VERY organized! I see the board with post-its behind you all the time, you showed me that to-do list which was color coded and I was astonished! How do you mean you're disorganized? You don't seem to be

". So my response was: "oh, the post-its? Yeah, I haven't looked at them for months, because they only motivate me for a short while and then there's too much on them and I get intimidated and quit using them. And sure, I made that color coded to-do list, even redid it later on, just to put it away and never glance at it again... Then there's also the issue of not drinking enough water/not eating/ not going to the toilet to pee because I get distracted/sidetracked by a video/hunger/a piece of trash on the table/a conversation etc. It's a good thing I don't need an adult diaper 24/7

"
But she told me I can always go see a doctor about the worrying signs (since she's not a clinical psychologist) and ask for help with finding the right lable if that would help me. She just told me not to get attached to the "adhd" label because maybe it's a completely different thing that looks similar or maybe it's that plus other things. To just not expect a certain diagnosis and perhaps stop researching things on adhd, because then I might unconsciously provide false information during potential assessments with my doctor. Which sounds wise and I probably should do that...
Jeez Louise, I've been writing this post for at least couple hours...

Do any of you happen to do that sometimes? Because for me it's just normal XD