Sometimes
I'm working in it

yeah, it can be difficult to control strong impulse emotions. i've had anger issues my whole life, and it's very difficult for me to keep from lashing out when i have a sudden flash of irrational anger. it's a symptom of PTSD unfortunately.
the best thing that i can do is isolate myself from other people and wait until i've calmed down to talk about what made me upset. i've told my friends that if i look angry and i'm not speaking, that it means i need to be left alone. if i'm choosing not to speak, it's so i don't snap at them. it's not perfect, but it's better than hurting people i care about.
when it comes to wishing harm on other people, i admit that i frequently feel that way. i constantly wish that the people who ruin this country or enact bigoted, horrible laws that kill and exploit people would die. i don't feel bad about it and i don't think i'm evil for it, but it's definitely not a healthy way to live, emotionally. it's stressful to always be furious and desperately wishing god would reach down and crush horrible people like ants. it's better to try to move on with my day and do what i can with what little power i have to make the world around me a better place.