I'm a shut-in so my favorite place is in my room. If I'm not in my room, I don't feel as...welcomed? I mean I know I live here and we own our house, buuuut my room is MY room. Not OUR room. MY ROOM.
I don't like staying in hotels or motels or really even houses that aren't mine.
When I have to stay in a hotel or motel, I don't feel safe.
I want to lock the doors and pile furniture in front of it so I KNOW no one will get in while I'm asleep.
I actually lived in a few shitty motels because of my parents selling our house because of bad shit, so I got plenty of not having MY own place.
I've become extremely territorial too. Like it puts me in a rage if people move or just touch my stuff.
I don't have a lot of stuff, so what I do have is MINE and don't touch it UB<
I'm also like...one of those old crotchety people that says "Get off my property or I'll shoot you >BU" the older I get.
This is MY land and you can't have MY land.
Anyways, I used to go over to my friend's place and stay the whole day and then go home.
But I didn't feel right in his house. I didn't think his mom liked me, and I didn't like taking his food or drinks or even using his bathroom.
Because it wasn't mine and I felt bad or guilty.
When we went out of town to stay with my uncle and his now ex, I mostly stayed hidden away in their side room.
I had a tv, my drawing tablet and movies so I was good.
I'd go out and forage occasionally, but mostly stayed in that room by myself.
My uncle and his now ex loved having us over and they'd never be mean to me or anything, but it wasn't MY place.
Not MY fridge or MY food or MY bathroom.
I actually broke one of their glasses by accident and his ex was like "It's okay! Everything is okay! Just don't step on the glass!" because she knows I have an anxiety disorder. Still felt bad and I hid in the room the rest of the time.
Do you ever feel that way too?
I mean, people have never yelled at me or were mean to me, but it's just not comfortable xD;
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